confuse?

Im back to where im supposinly belonged to but only for a night.Im starting to itch already but then again if it were to make my parents just smiled for a day,i think it's totally worth it.

Mummy & daddy, i really do miss you all...2 yrs,just 2 yrs...be patience..

Felt kinda weird too cos dear's not around and i'll be sleeping alone tonight.Im starting to miss him already but my strong character just wouldnt wants it to be revealed.

Work is so busy that i did not realised school is starting and i realised everyone is looking forward to it.Whereas it's the opposite for me,i felt more obliged to be working than to study.Im still pondering whether i should crave out my career from there.I seriously measured out all the possibilities and impossibilities that whether this industry could give me a bright future.I had also asked many for their opinions and most told me to go ahead with it.Sigh,as usual im still fickle-minded.

Talking about relationship,all i can say is that we have not reach the maturity stage yet.We still have some serious fights on and off but always managed to iron it out at the very last bit.I will not deny that he is always the one who saved this relationship from drowning because i know he always feel that one day we would pull off this stormy period and be a matured couple.

Dear, do you realised that i only say the 3 words when we were about to sleep?Frankly speaking, that's when im able to place aside my strong front or in other words express my genuine affection towards you.

I do hate myself most of the time for being an ambitious,egoistic,self-centred person.I really do hope i am a "xiao nu ren" but it always fail.I dont know why and how.Im such a failure in relationship...:`(

On the other hand,im pretty much happy of all the friends i have.Hanging out with them can remove all my worries instantly...Ee aunty as usual still very nice,she always cook "ai xin can" for me to bring to work.It envious all my colleagues man!And of course im so proud and appreciative of my future mother in law.She isnt just my bf's mum but she is also a close friend whom i can confides my problems to. Espeically, I like her 21st century mind most!Cos she's not like other mums whom think traditionally but instead encourage us not be so "lau gu ban".

Photos will be upload soon...hahaha..getting old and lazy..hee