Lend Me Your Ears Cos I've Got Lots To Say: i want to be alone for now...

Suddenly im feeling so tired about life now.Why must we do things according to other's wishes?Why cant we just do the things we like?You all told me that we are not as what we were used to and im a "big" girl now so you all assumed i can adapt to everything quickly.Yes i may look like im a sensible,big girl now but do you know im still a little girl at heart.Whenever i talked about it,my eyes would be filled with tears without fail.I really understand and had move on but why you all must hurt me again.I know i cant get whatever i want like i used to so i worked hard for it but when i did,you crtisized.Why must i deprived myself in proverty?This is my life and im very happy the way i spent my money.Im angry because i felt maliged.Counting my expenses for this month,i realised majority is not spent on myself but people whom i want to make happy but no one seems to appreciate it.when i buy gifts for people,im not trying to impress but im just paying back twice they gave me.When people are nice to me,i treat them doubly nice but no one seems to know.Maybe i should just keep everything to myself next time...

People may suffered the same plight as me or even worst but they might have brothers or sisters to share their sufferings with.I dont have,im all alone.Sometimes,i really do feel lonely.I have brothers but they are all far away from me.I miss them,i really miss my once so happy family.kor kor,i really miss the days when you always try to wrestle with me,the times when you always hush me down if our house blacked out and lots of philosophy of life which you had taught me.

Thanks bestie for talking with me over the phone for 3 hours last night just to hear me out.I felt so much better after i had a big cry.But i guess i had hurt some people as well.Dear,let me be alone these few days alright?If you want to punish me,love me less,shout as many vugularities as you want,i really dont bother anymore.Im tired.

Went to bestie house today and we dolled up together.I miss doing so.She passed me my wallet which i love it so much.It's so cheap!Thanks si jie also for helping!After that,i went to accompany her to collect her ralph lauren bag.She's pampering herself now.rich woman.After that,ah cheong treated us to dinner,its like finally cos he had been so busy.We misses him so much cos he's our favourite teacher.Thanks ah cheong!