You know you love me,as well as I do!

Life is always full of uncertainities, one moment you are good, the other moment,it goes wrong. I had finally came to a point where I realise pushing the blames to my parents is no longer valid to me anymore.Im really neutral now. Though at times, I still do get upsat when people led a better life than me. My defination of a better life is not the many dollar signs that matter but the loving home that everyone look forward into heading too after a hard day at work or even just a day out with friends. My parents have 3 children but none are staying with them and something must really be really wrong. Though aunty and uncle treat me very nice, I still miss home afterall. I guess kor kor also feels that way. I really feel so sad for my brother. I really wish I could get my house quickly and let them shift in with me even how my mum oppose to it.

But nonetheless,im still vey grateful to dear. I am really sure God sent him to me, especially to help me up during my darkest period. Can you imagine 4 years in the same class but we had only spoken to each other for less than 10 times in school? And surprisingly,I never will imagine that he could make such a wonderful bf. He is always there to take my sudden mood swings and all the craziness that I myself cant take it. He did not even mind making commitments at such an early age and allow me to start making plans for our future such as ROM,getting a flat together and etc just for the sake of helping me get through the difficult times. Im sure most young man would be scared out of their wits already. I am also glad that he allows me to stay with him, squezzing the small bed with him. I didnt realise i have grown so dependence on him already. Everything I do or make in life,it involves him. Im already sharing part of my life with him. Dear once again,thank you for everything. But i really cant promise you that i will change to become a better tempered gf because PMS really very hard to avoid. I seek for your kind understanding.haha. Please try to add in some surprises to our relationship too because that's my weakness which eventually can help reduce my PMS for at least a while?hehe. I no need extravagent stuff, even a slip of paper saying I love you can brings a smile to me like during vday.I like that piece of note a lot. You get what i mean dear? And last but not least,I love you very much. :)