My Angels...

Oh dear, it must be ages since I logged in blogspot, I attempted logging in more than thrice before I managed to remember the correct password. Haha.

It's a brand new year again! I hope this year will be a promising one for me. Last year had been really topsy turvy but I'm glad the trial I was put through had finally been over. I know I had been very selfish and did not spare a thought for the people around me. But I really did not regret the decision I had made, I know what I want for myself. I always tell myself I have to step out of my comfort zone, even if I had to fall hard, I make sure I will learn hard! On the other hand, Im not that bad afterall, of course I do still feel sorry for the people who love me especially my wonderful boyfriend.

Time will only tell the one who are really truthful and reliable and he fits all. I used to feel that his big love can be too suffocating at times but thinking through,will I be able to find someone like him again? Yesterday I joined his family to a "jia tok" and I seriously miss the times back then. We were all like a family so happily enjoying one another company.

I can only be a million thankful to his gracious family. They never once despised nor ignored me unlike the bunch of evil relatives I had. They are so forgiving and always had the door left open for me. Every family outings, they will definitely count me in. Tell me, arnt they all angels sent from above?

Thank you dear for taking care of me and never once left me. I really like the way we are now, giving one another space to do the things we like. I love you....

I'm Sorry...

It must be months ever since I touched blogger again. Many unexpected things happened and it must had surprised everyone. Sigh! How should I describe the exciting yet bumpy ride I had? It was really a brand new experience for me, I was exposed to many things and there were a lot of responsibility that I need to hold. It was pretty tough at first as I'm so green to everything but I'm so thankful to have many to guide me along. I really learnt a lot of things and have built up my network from there ever since.

Not afraid to admit, I was carried away and allowed the lil tinge of freedom to hurt many closest people around me, especially him and as well as his family. I was guilty but never so much in the beginning. However as time goes by, I realised that they had never leave me despite the hurt I had made. It was purely a love that's unconditional! I know they had never blamed me but I felt so bad neglecting them the moment my life start picking up. When I needed you, you were there but when you needed someone, I was nowhere to be seen. I always thought my gratitude towards them was stronger than anything else but still...I was given into temptation made me the biggest sinner.

September 1st had just passed and it was supposed to be our 3rd Anniversary if it had wouldnt be for my selfishness, self-centreness and a moment of folly. Your inexsistence made me realised how important you are to me.

Thank you for lovin me and I'm really sorry...

You know you love me,as well as I do!

Life is always full of uncertainities, one moment you are good, the other moment,it goes wrong. I had finally came to a point where I realise pushing the blames to my parents is no longer valid to me anymore.Im really neutral now. Though at times, I still do get upsat when people led a better life than me. My defination of a better life is not the many dollar signs that matter but the loving home that everyone look forward into heading too after a hard day at work or even just a day out with friends. My parents have 3 children but none are staying with them and something must really be really wrong. Though aunty and uncle treat me very nice, I still miss home afterall. I guess kor kor also feels that way. I really feel so sad for my brother. I really wish I could get my house quickly and let them shift in with me even how my mum oppose to it.

But nonetheless,im still vey grateful to dear. I am really sure God sent him to me, especially to help me up during my darkest period. Can you imagine 4 years in the same class but we had only spoken to each other for less than 10 times in school? And surprisingly,I never will imagine that he could make such a wonderful bf. He is always there to take my sudden mood swings and all the craziness that I myself cant take it. He did not even mind making commitments at such an early age and allow me to start making plans for our future such as ROM,getting a flat together and etc just for the sake of helping me get through the difficult times. Im sure most young man would be scared out of their wits already. I am also glad that he allows me to stay with him, squezzing the small bed with him. I didnt realise i have grown so dependence on him already. Everything I do or make in life,it involves him. Im already sharing part of my life with him. Dear once again,thank you for everything. But i really cant promise you that i will change to become a better tempered gf because PMS really very hard to avoid. I seek for your kind understanding.haha. Please try to add in some surprises to our relationship too because that's my weakness which eventually can help reduce my PMS for at least a while?hehe. I no need extravagent stuff, even a slip of paper saying I love you can brings a smile to me like during vday.I like that piece of note a lot. You get what i mean dear? And last but not least,I love you very much. :)